Is boys really this confusing? (keep it real with me)?

Ok so coming from work i still had my notebook in my bag from school. so on the train my crush ask to see my notebook (seeing what i do in my cles) as he looked thro he stumble on a section divider with a poem on it and it hit me that was the poem i wrote bout him in cl one day when i was OD bored. As soon as i notice i yelled out n reached for my notebook and he moved really quick but i went in beast mode and got my notebook back. after i got it back he was like "let me read it" and im like NO HOW EMBARRING!! OMG!! and he dont understand why its so embarring and he wont drop it!! Now when he see me he brings it up like I still wanna see the poem blah blah blah.. Why does he want to read it? does it really matter? he know i like him but this will just show im obsess with him.. what to do??